Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Same Space

Oh to be a bochur in 770, standing near the Rebbe - standing near the Rebbe! - sucked into holiness until you too are holiness.

Gaze at the Rebbe every minute. But not to look inside during tefillah? Noch when the Rebbe is right there? Here?? But not to behold the Rebbe's face every second we have a chance??!

And so the battle continuess...

But there's another player here. The world. See the world through the eyes of the Rebbe and then you, holiness, can turn world into holiness by virtue of the fact that you've connected with the Rebbe.

Rebbe, siddur, world, Rebbe, siddur, world.

Wonder what I'd do...

Sunday, December 27, 2015

Q. How did one glass break another?
A. It breathed (while the third was in another cabinet).

Such a wretched creature.
So much to fix.
So much messed up character.
Why are these sent into the world?
Arghh no fair

Sunday, December 20, 2015

Good night, Heaven.

Good night, friends and family Up There. 

(Hey what time zone do you follow? I'll say mine.)

Good night, Heaven.

Friday, December 18, 2015

Why The Anger?

Maybe it's cuz death shows we have no control?

So why anger?

Is the anger fear of not having any control?

Is the anger sadness? Maybe the anger is anger?



The five stages of grief. Denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.

(Just remember, "the five stages, denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance are a part of the framework that makes up our learning to live with the one we lost. They are tools to help us frame and identify what we may be feeling. But they are not stops on some linear timeline in grief.")

Sunday, December 13, 2015

Perseverance, Patience and Prayer

You need perseverance, patience and prayer and then things work out.
But really prayer.
(With perseverance and patience.)

Oh please, G-d, let me remember this and better yet please don't test me!!

Tuesday, December 08, 2015

So Much Rage

So much rage
So much rage
So much bitterness, hurt and pain.
So much rage

So much pain
So much pain
So much bitterness, hurt and rage.
So much pain.

So much hurt
So much hurt
So much bitterness, rage and pain.
So much hurt

Just so much rage, bitterness, hurt and pain. So much so much so much pain.

Sunday, December 06, 2015

Friday, December 04, 2015


Sometimes, - like right now - I feel like the imperial representative of Britians's French Connection.