Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Interesting that I'm usually low on iron when I'm so clearly steel many a time.

Monday, December 29, 2014

Thou Shall Not Fear

So cool. A mitzvah forbidding us to fear. Fear is in your control.

Fearlessness in Battle

Negative Commandment 58

The 58th prohibition is that we are forbidden from fearing the enemy1 at time of war and retreating before them. Rather, it is an obligation to strengthen one's heart and stand strong in the lines of battle. A person who turns away and retreats violates this prohibition.
The source of this prohibition is G‑d's statement,2 "Do not re­treat before them." This prohibition is repeated in the statement,3 "Do not fear them." The same idea — not to retreat or turn back during battle — is repeated many times, because it is a situation in which real truth4 can triumph.
You shall not defraud one another (Leviticus 25:14)

Legally, it is only forbidden to defraud one's fellow. But a Chassid must go beyond the letter of the law, and take care not to delude himself, either.

(Rabbi Bunim of Peshischa)

Calls From Abroad: N/A

So I wanna change phone companies because mine has annoying service and I've found a comparable one with calls to many countries, but won't give me an American number for friends and family (and others) abroad to be able to call me for free.

So I deliberated for a bit.

And then I realized - with a smirk - that it makes no difference.

Nobody in America calls me anyhow :)

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Raphael Center

Indeed, no good deed goes unpunished.

That was for the massage but now I see it actually started from the exercise class decision.

Wowzers. Gotta oil that faith wheel, I do.

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Time: the gift, the responsibility, the trust

If we'd have to self-crank the wheel of time to get going, I'm not so sure I'd be this far ahead.

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Just Me and Him

A husband and children would be nice.
As would belonging to a community.
And having a steady income.
And using my talents.

Those are all really nice things to have. Pretty important, too.
But not the most important, no.

The most important, the ONLY important thing is the foundation, the basics,  of my existence.

The alef.

The alef: a yud above and a yud below and line connecting them.

There's Hashem above and me below and a line of Torah and Mitzvos connecting us. And that's all that counts.

Me. Faith. Him.

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Jam to Soothe

I think the time has come to suit up (put on shoes) and march over to a bakery and get myself a fresh sufganiya.
Enough of the maturity and restraint and responsibility and growth and self-discipline and lessons and journeys and pain and introspection and all that heavy stuff.
Now I just need a warm jelly doughnut.

Sunday, December 14, 2014

I Miss My Bedroom

The wooden floor, the dim lighting at night. The coziness of the small corner. The shelf right there with my books and precious sentimental items: family-framed photo with my kidney recipient upon leaving the hospital, my Gush Katif framed photo from Nitzanim, assorted army paraphernalia, a holy piece of cloth, my travel trinkets from around the world. My rug. My blanket. My comfortable stuff. My books. My shelves and shelves of books in my old familiar bookshelves. My desk with my Jerusalem image. My seforim, my kidney files, my ceramic heart plant pot.

I miss my bedroom. 

Tuesday, December 09, 2014

Beautiful Bugs

I just saw a most beautiful bug.

The world is full of bugs but we don't usually gasp from their beauty.

I suppose if we'd pause, crouch and ponder, we'd see a lot more beauty in the bugs of our life.

Sunday, December 07, 2014

Making Aliyah

Hahaha making aliyah is much harder than I thought.

But that's okay.

Friday, December 05, 2014

Really, my מודה אני should leave me trembling with awe and burning with focus for at least one hour, hopefully more.