Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Thursday, December 19, 2013
Friday, December 13, 2013
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
These daily doses are just uncannily spot on. True, Torah/Chassidus will be found applicable everywhere cuz that's just what truth does and is, but somehow they are extra precise when it comes to me :D.Learning is not about acquiring knowledge and yet more knowledge. Learning is about making quantum leaps beyond your subjective self, about seeing things from higher and yet higher perspectives.
No matter how high a summit you may reach, there is always another peak above. But you can reach that higher peak only when you realize you are still in the valley.
The Talmud tells of Rabbi Zeira, who fasted one hundred fasts to forget all the Torah he had learned in Babylonia before going to study the Torah of the Land of Israel.
Like this one that I got on Friday and discussed with Yocheved. Was a good lesson, reminder.
What will be in the next moment is not in this one now.
It does not yet exist.
It has yet to be created.
When its time comes, then it will be created by the Creator of all things,
out of nowhere, emerging from the void.
There is only one thing that exists at this moment: That in which you are engaged right now.
20 Shevat 5730 (1970)
That helped me to get over the stuff from the end of last week. It'll almost be a week, actually. Tuesday night, I think it was.
This one was more encouraging than disciplinary.
And then the major major one. That I emailed CS about. Huge stuff. And hugely apropos.In life, you don’t get all the answers at once.
First you must absorb and live with one simple truth. Then, later, you must find another truth—one that may seem to conflict with and negate all you previously learned.
Then, from that confusion, emerges a higher truth—the inner light behind all you had learned before.
Beyond Faith & Intellect Kislev 29, 5774 · December 2, 2013
Intellect is inadequate because not all things can be explained. Intellect needs faith.Faith is impotent because it remains forever obscure. Faith needs intellect.
But they are opposites, as contradictory as being and not being: Faith accepts; Intellect questions. Faith surrenders; Intellect struggles.
Miraculously, there is a power that can join them in harmony, and it is called wisdom: The capacity to see the truth as it is and the quietness to allow it entry without loss.
Based on letters and talks of the Rebbe, Rabbi M. M. Schneerson More articles... |
Friday, December 06, 2013
Wednesday, December 04, 2013
The shocks and stresses, the dark and bitter and gloomy despair, can peek its head in but cannot stay.
And now, now I hear the flutes and birds even as I sit at home.
Monday, December 02, 2013
Sunday, December 01, 2013
I must continue to hold onto these two thoughts, these two powerhouses of realities, as they have schlepped me up and carried me higher than imaginable.
Things WILL be good, in the WAY I perceive them as good and it will happen through my happiness! Amen!!
!יאללה, עכשיו אפשר לחגוג. לחיים
Monday, November 11, 2013
Thursday, November 07, 2013
Tuesday, November 05, 2013
My behavior is appalling. No, not the Johnny type. (Though possibly that too.)
I wanna beat myself up. And I usually run from violence.
What the heck is wrong with me?? Why do I feel like staying in bed the next 2 weeks rather than working on my book?
Is it, perhaps, as Professor Scott explained? Probably.
I feel like a huge baby :((
The lion was gentle and strong. Oddly, many did not care for the lion even though the lion cared for them all. The lion did not know of the grapes flowing on a grassy patch but the lion shared his food and his skills and his soul. He's king of the wild.
Man came, all civilized, and the enamored population all but forgot about the lion. Man was good, so that's okay, but the lion's roar echoed in some hearts. But possibly he was roaring to himself.
And then, thousands of years later (or possibly earlier), a Swedish library houses the birth of recognition.
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Because 4 letters is not polite. (reminiscent of the "I is the ninth letter" joke).
I am really upset.
I am very nervous.
I am so stupid.
I am incredibly irresponsible.
I am feeling vulnerable.
I am feeling disappointed.
I have been disappointed.
I am lacking determination.
I have no motivation.
I feel very overwhelmed.
I feel very foolish.
I am actually scared.
I am also frustrated.
I am crying lots.
I am acting irrationally.
I am not prepared.
But I just remembered that it's the Rebbe's project. Zehu, I'm giving it over to the Rebbe to ensure its success. It was never about me anyhow. The message of Shlichus and Ahavas Yisroel are the Rebbe's messages and therefore the Rebbe will make sure all my characters show up and that everything falls into place.
Ok, new 4 word sentences :)
I feel much better.
I will see success.
I will feel success.
Baruch Hashem for everything.
Everything will be great.
People will have time.
Everyone will show up.
I will remember details.
I will stay calm.
I will spread joy.
The book will rock!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, October 25, 2013
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
I'm about to embark on what I'm fairly certain is my longest single destination journey*. 30 hours. Of course, India/Nepal comes to mind but that was destined (according to nature) to take quicker. Also, that was super fun and adventurous and entertaining and culturally tsunamic so doesn't quite count.
Ahh, am I not the luckiest gal on the planet??
*barring cheeky possibilities such as "life", "happiness" or the like.
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Before I go, I need to shower,daven, eat breakfast, prepare food for the day, get massage equipment and school supplies.
And I need to sleep. I really need a good night's sleep before such a tiring day and I ought to have prepared everything beforehand but -
Art has grabbed my soul and I must obey its call for ransom.
Friday, October 18, 2013
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
"Wow. I'm enamored by your delightful and singular writing, paralleled only by your exquisite attitude towards life. "Was my comment on Talya's latest blog post describing her entry into our Land as an Olah Chodasha. Here is a snippet:
"Unreal only captures the feeling to an extent, but what I can break down of my sleepy nervousness offers me a distant understanding of what occurred. I recognize in awe the tremendous support I felt from my Midreshet people, my friends and my family greeting me at the welcoming ceremony. The dreamlike connection to the excitement of being home falls buried under the stones of anxiety raining down in anticipation of the next 3 days of my entirely Hebrew seminar and the isolation of not joining the IDF with all 125 heroes my age. My body trembles in doubts and aches of the unknown waving hello."What a refreshing individual. I wish you much luck, Talya!
Friday, October 11, 2013
Wednesday, October 09, 2013
Sunday, October 06, 2013
Thursday, October 03, 2013
What if I became a leading expert on massage and autism?
What if I studied and researched and my papers and my success gained acclaim and I'd travel extensively to lecture on and demonstrate the near-miraculous effects that massage has on autistic children and adults, and I'd do it all without a single college degree?
Satisfied and proud to the point of popping, comes to mind.
All my yearnings coming together --
Massage, special education, teaching, writing and traveling.
Gd, lead me on this path...?
Tuesday, October 01, 2013
Monday, September 23, 2013
If you did things right, celebrate that you have a G-d who appreciates your good work.
And if you fell on your face, celebrate that you have a G-d who does not abandon you when you fall.
*Based on letters and talks of the Rebbe, Rabbi M. M. Schneerson; words and condensation by Rabbi Tzvi Freeman.*
Sunday, September 15, 2013
Tammuz 12, 5773 · June 20, 2013
Look at your own life: You do so many different things, one after the other without any apparent connection between them.
Inner peace is when every part of you and every facet of your day is moving in the same direction.
When you have purpose, you have peace.
Friday, September 13, 2013
Chabad Research Unit – For Friday Night – Sponsored by Dr Reuven Joel.....www.chabadresearch.org – firstname.lastname@example.org....from Rabbi Dr Naftali Loewenthal.
In our modern world today, generally no-one forces us to deny Judaism. But our spiritual frailties often lead us to feel that we are restricted, tied down or trapped in various ways, and therefore prevented from full self-expression as Jews. Such as - “I would like to eat kosher but I must eat with my clients at a non-kosher restaurant...” Or - “I simply do not have the time to put on Tefilin”...
These limitations are a form of ‘vow’, a pledge to the secular domain. On Yom Kippur, in response to our sincerity, G-d dissolves away all these restrictions 2 . Whatever our apparent normal commitments and pledges to material and secular values, on Yom Kippur we are given freedom and can openly express total love and dedication to G-d.
Then, when the sacred day draws to a close, and for the rest of the year, it is up to us...
INNER POWER AND JOY
In the Reader’s Repetition of the Additional Service (Musaf) on Yom Kippur there is a description of the procedure in the Temple on this day.
The High Priest would pronounce the Divine Name which is otherwise never heard. Hearing this, the people would prostrate themselves. He would also enter the Holy of Holies. Yom Kippur is the only day when anyone could enter this most sacred place. The High Priest would go there, as the representative of the entire Jewish people.
Today the Temple does not yet stand again in Jerusalem, but there is a Temple in the heart of every Jew. Each one of us, man or woman, is the High Priest in our own Temple in our heart.
On Yom Kippur we enter the Holy of Holies and make contact with the Divine Power which dwells within us.
The challenge for each person is to find a way to harness this immense power and to use it in a positive way during the weeks and months ahead. Jewish teaching is the guide, showing how the inner Divine energy can be expressed in every aspect of life. Hence Yom Kippur is a good time for making resolutions about strengthening one’s relationship with Jewish teaching and Jewish law. This is the real meaning of the day.
It is a joyous time of spiritual freedom with fresh opportunities to make a permanent step forward in life.
Although we fast, and the mood of the day is serious, Yom Kippur is a time of inner joy.
1. Kol Nidrei (“All Vows..”) is the melodic prayer sung in the Synagogue on Yom Kippur evening. This begins the Yom Kippur service.
2. This follows an explanation by Rabbi Shneur Zalman of Liadi (c.1800), in his Likkutei Torah, Matot 85a.
Monday, September 09, 2013
Anyhow, here's the phenomenal story:
After the liberation of Kovno in August 1944, Rabbi Oshry retrieved the hidden archive and published five volumes of responsa. A sampling of these responsa, taken from Rabbi Oshry’s Responsa From the Holocaust, follows.
Responsa From the Holocaust, written by Rabbi Ephraim Oshry. Translated by Y. Leiman (New York, 2001). Excerpted with permission from the Oshry family.
Risking One’s Life to Join the Partisans
Question: Every day the Germans would take more than 1,000 people to slave labor at the airfield near Kovno. Whenever they found it difficult to fill that quota, they immediately grew infuriated and swept through the ghetto in a murderous mood to capture additional Jews. This was before they placed the burden of supplying the 1,000 men for each of the two shifts every day on the Eltestenrat (Council of Elders).
When the Germans swept through the ghetto, they would attack unarmed Jews, beat them mercilessly, and do what they could to denigrate them. In the ghetto, every day was worse than the previous one. Countless new edicts were issued to confuse and frighten Jews.
One day a report spread through the ghetto that the Germans had decided to transfer a large number of people to another camp. We knew that this meant a death camp. On the heels of this rumor came a new one. A large number of ghetto prisoners were planning to escape that night to join the partisan units in the forests that were fighting a guerilla war against the Germans. At least that way they could stand up to the enemy.
The problem, however, was that the road to the forest was extremely dangerous. In addition, the ghetto was surrounded by an electrified barbed wire fence—touching it was suicidal—and watchtowers with machine-gun-armed German sentries who were on duty day and night. If all that might not keep the Jews from escaping, a great searchlight lit up the entire area outside the ghetto.
The partisans lacked weapons and, as a rule, they accepted only people who brought their own weapons. This rule increased the risk of escaping from the ghetto. Any Jew found outside the ghetto would immediately be killed by the Germans. But if they caught a Jew with a weapon in his possession, his treatment would be far worse than a quick, simple death.
To add to all these dangers, most partisan groups in the forests had little desire to accept Jews. Anti-Semites themselves, the partisans were fighting the Germans for their own reasons, and a Jew who fell into their “protective” hands more often than not paid with his life.
In consideration of all these factors, I was asked whether Jewish law permitted a ghetto prisoner to risk escaping into the forest in the hope that G-d would help him stay alive.
There seemed to be two approaches to take: Within the ghetto, the danger to one’s life was certain, whereas escaping put new hope into one’s life. The standard ghetto joke the prisoners used to express the certainty of death within the ghetto walls was to call the ghetto dwellers, “dead men on vacation.” In other words, we looked upon ourselves as dead men, whose lives were no more than temporary reprieves.
Even during the periods when there were no Akzionen (roundups), the lives of the Jews in the ghetto were always in peril. For any little infraction, the Germans would shoot to kill. It made no difference whether the German imagined that the Jew had been disrespectful to him, or whether the Jew had a crumb of food in his clothing when he came back from slave labor. The ghetto itself constituted an immediate danger to life, whereas life outside was not as absolutely dangerous. Outside the ghetto there was always a vital element of uncertainty: one might survive.
On the other hand, one could make the following evaluation: Life in the ghetto posed no immediate danger. Other rumors had it that those who remained in the ghetto would come to no harm so long as they worked and fulfilled all the German demands, while the danger to those who escaped to the forest came not only from Germans but also from Lithuanians who either handed such Jews back to the Germans or killed them themselves.
Response: It seemed to me that living in the ghetto was definitely a danger to life. The entire purpose of isolating the Jews and imprisoning them in ghettos was solely to rob them of everything they possessed, to enslave them for their labor value, and then to destroy them physically. On the other hand, escaping to the forest offered the survivor another chance at life. Whoever gathered up the courage and decided to escape did so only after thoroughly investigating and weighing his chances.
From time to time we saw partisans inside the ghetto, evidently getting in—and out again—without trouble. Anyone who wished to join them was given instructions as to how to find his way through the forest partisan hideouts. Although the paths were risky, the partisans obviously survived. Clearly, the accursed Germans’ declaration against the Jews made it obligatory for the Jews to fight back and do to them as they were doing to us.
I therefore ruled that one should not undermine the spirit of those who wished to escape to the forest. Rather, one should encourage and support them, and give them every possible assistance in obtaining weapons and ammunition so that when they arrived they would be ready to fight.
Reciting Kaddish for a Gentile Woman
Question: During the days of affliction when the accursed Germans mercilessly annihilated young and old, men and women, the Lithuanian gentiles, with whom the Jews had lived for hundreds of years, conspired with the German murderers to kill Jews and loot their property. They sought out the Jews wherever they were hiding and whenever they caught one immediately handed him over to their German masters who proceeded to torture and kill the Jew.
Despite the violent hatred that the gentiles had for the Jews, a hatred which the Germans fanned into a flame of vengeance, there were among them unique individuals who were anguished by the cruelty committed against Jews and would not sit by doing nothing. Whatever they did, though, was done at an enormous risk because the Germans immediately shot anyone they suspected of aiding Jews. Nevertheless, such people existed and they saved Jews at whatever cost.
In 1945, shortly after our liberation, Reb Moshe Segal came to me with the following question: He had been saved by a gentile woman who, at enormous risk to herself, had hidden him in her basement together with ten other Jews, providing them all with food and shelter until the liberation. After the war, when these Jews wanted to repay her in some way for her great compassion, they discovered to their deep sorrow that she had died right after the liberation. The idea took root in their minds to say Kaddish for her, and Reb Moshe Segal was chosen for the task. His question was, Was it permissible to say Kaddish for a gentile?
Response: Basically, Kaddish is a prayer of praise to G-d. When Rabbi Nathan of Babylonia was appointed Exilarch, the cantor used to add in Kaddish the phrase, “In your lifetime and in your days and in the lifetime of our Exilarch and in the lifetime of all the Jewish people.” Similarly, in the days of Maimonides, they used to add in the Kaddish, “In your lifetime and in the lifetime of our master Moshe ben Maimon.”
In this vein of mentioning others in the Kaddish, it is plainly permissible to say Kaddish in memory of the gentile woman who saved so many Jews from death.... Not only is it permissible to say Kaddish with her in mind, it is a mitzva to do so.
Eating Soaked Matza to Fulfill the Passover Mitzva
Question: In the winter of 5702 (1942), several months before Passover, many of the Jews in the Kovno Ghetto began to try to figure out ways to fulfill the mitzva of eating matza on Pessach. At that time even the most basic foods were not available in the ghetto, let alone white flour from which matza is normally baked. The ghetto prisoners ate whatever they could get their hand on because the black bread that was rationed out was never enough to keep away hunger, and the Germans guarded against any food getting into the ghetto.
Precisely because of this plight, people made every effort not to be ensnared by depression or apathy but to retain their spirits and their psychological strength, hoping that the evil forces would ultimately be destroyed and the prisoners set free. Many of the ghetto prisoners perceived that the only means available to them of opposing the will of their accursed German warders was to maintain some form of Torah study, along with keeping the mitzvos so that the Jewish character would not be destroyed.
Toward this end, I organized a small secret group of men who undertook to find ways and means of obtaining flour so that they could bake matzos and fulfill, at the very least, the mitzva of eating an olive-sized piece of matza on Passover Eve. One member of the group was Moshe Goldkorn—may G-d avenge him—a Polish Jew who had escaped the German murderers and found his way to Lithuania, only to be cast into the Kovno Ghetto along with us. This man labored in the Jordan Brigade and came into contact with Lithuanians with whom he could barter for flour.
Our next problem was how to get the flour into the ghetto, since the Germans guarded each one of the entrances, and were especially careful that no food, from potatoes to bread, should get in through the gates undetected.
But Goldkorn took it upon himself—literally at the risk of his life—to locate a source for flour, and from time to time to smuggle a small amount into the ghetto. His joy at being granted the merit of making it possible for Jews to fulfill the great mitzva of eating matza was enormous.
The flour was hidden in a secret place guarded very carefully so that no harm would come to it. Bit by bit, Goldkorn smuggled in enough flour to bake matzos for nearly 100 Jews, each of whom would receive one olive-sized piece of matzo. As Pessach drew nearer, the members of this group, at the risk of their lives, managed to bake the matzos in Block C, die Kleine Werkstaten [small workshops], where bread was baked for the ghetto families. With permission from the directors of the Werkstaten, this group managed to bake all the matzos over a 10-day period after preparing the oven according to Halacha.
But the happiest of them all was Goldkorn, for he had merited the privilege of bringing the flour in, not only for himself, but for the other Jews. At that time, it was indeed a very great mitzva that Goldkorn had fulfilled—providing the means for so many people to fulfill this aspect of the holiday of freedom in according with Halacha, inspiring hope in his fellow-Jews that they might yet live to celebrate this holiday with joy after the defeat of their German enemies.
Two days before Passover, Goldkorn was returning from his labor in the evening. He was stopped by German police and searched. A small bag of flour was found on his person. When the Germans realized that a Jew, despite their strict orders to bring no food into the ghetto, had dared violate their edict, they beat him violently and viciously all along his entire body, but the worst of it was that they broke all of his teeth. Yes this Jew, throughout all of his suffering, accepted it with love for his Creator, knowing that he had made it possible for so many others to fulfill a precious mitzva. Afterward, Goldkorn came to me with a very serious problem. As he spoke, he broke into tears. “With my broken teeth, how can I fulfill the mitzva of eating an olive-sized piece of matza? Since I come from a chassidic family, whose custom is never to eat matza that is soaked (gebroktz) on Pessach, how can I break that custom now? Is there any way for me to fulfill the mitzva of eating matza?”
Response: The tradition of not soaking matza is a stringency. Halacha does not forbid soaking matza. I allowed the questioner to soak the matza in water even though he was descended from Chassidim whose custom was not to eat soaked matza on Pessach—because he had no other way of fulfilling the mitzva, a mitzva for which he had risked his life. I did however instruct him to obtain permission from a beis din of three people which would annul the implicit vow of the tradition of his forbears that he had upheld all his life not to eat soaked matza on Pessach.
After we set up a beis din which annulled his “vow,” he proceeded to fulfill the mitva of eating an olive’s bulk of matza together with all the others who, thanks to him, fulfilled this mitzva. Although his whole body was aching and scarred from the vicious beating the German animals had inflicted upon him, there was no end to his joy and his thanks to G-d for granting him the privilege of eating matza despite his wounds and his broken teeth.
Donning Tefilin Before Bar Mitzva
Question: In the ghetto hell, we discovered that the main design of the Germans was to strip away our divine image and to show the world that Jews were a subhuman species whose blood could be shed with fear of punishment; that killing a Jew was like killing a fly: not only had no crime been committed, but you had done the world a favor by getting rid of a troublesome creature.
Part of their overall plan to develop a smooth-running machine for the annihilation of the Jews was the effort to instill in their victims a spirit of despondency so pervasive and deep that it would destroy whatever sense of hope we Jews might have, and leave nothing but broken shells to be led like cattle and sheep to the slaughter.
That is why I took it upon myself to encourage and inspire the brokenhearted, to inject within them the spark of hope, the belief that HaShem, the G-d of the Jews, would turn away His fury, heed our prayers, and not leave us in the hands of our enemies.
I organized a group of boys called Tiferes Bachurim, whom I taught Torah and the fear of G-d, implanting in them the seeds for eternal living that would sprout from doing G-d’s will wholeheartedly.
Among the boys in the Tiferes Bachurim was an extraordinary boy from Kovno named Shereshevsky who dedicated himself totally to the study of Torah. Even though he was not yet bar mitzva, he was as precise as an adult in his fulfillment of mitzvos. This extraordinary boy asked me if he might be permitted to don tefilin, despite the fact that his bar mitzva was 3 months away.
When I fathomed the simple sincerity of this boy’s request, tears gushed from my eyes. I could not help citing the words of the prophet Yirmeyohu, “Who would grant that my head be water, my eyes a source of tears that I could day and night bewail the dead of my nation, for death has come up in our windows, has entered our houses, to destroy the youth outside, our chosen ones from the streets.”
Response: I ruled that that precious child who had such a great desire to merit the privilege of fulfilling this mitzva because he feared that he might not live to fulfill it if he waited to reach 13, certainly had authorization for donning tefilin. I relied on the opinions that permit a minor to don tefilin if he knows to guard them in cleanliness. This was certainly applicable to the Shereshevsky boy who had already demonstrated his fear of G-d and was a Talmud student aware and capable of maintaining the degree of bodily cleanliness required to don tefilin.
Moreover, since he was three months short of his thirteenth birthday, I relied on the prevailing custom that a boy don tefilin 2 or 3 months before his bar mitzva.
Although I had ruled that he might don the tefilin even though he was still a minor, I warned him that if he should find himself with nine other Jews who wished to count him as the tenth for a minyan, he was obligated to let them know that he was not yet old enough to be counted into a minyan.
New edicts by the German taskmasters were issued against us every day; especially upon Jewish children. Who could assure this boy that he would ever reach the age of 13 to fulfill the mitzva? This was why he could not wait to don tefilin.
Friday, August 30, 2013
Friday, August 09, 2013
Once Rabbi Beroka asked Elijah,"Is there anyone in this marketplace who has a place in the world to come?"
Two men walked by.
Ellijah remarked "These two have a share in the World to Come."
Rabbi Beroka asked them "What is your occupation?"
They replied,"We are comedians. When we see people who are depressed we cheer them up,also when we see two people quarreling,we strive hard to make peace between them."
(Babylonian Talmud, Ta'anit,22a)
Monday, July 29, 2013
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Third world phone!
thank you my dear friend you are connecting me to the joy of life agai
hi do i pick u at 5pm to to go themoishtain?
good u found them! u must stay kfocussed! Let everything moish out! (dont know what it means but it sounds healing)
a que hora salen los muchachos?
i just talked with her and said its inmoishble before 5pm!
but im dressed crazy. the bajurim will moish fun of me
LOLLLL! I MISS YOU YVONNE!!!
And get away with this?
You're gonna pay for this.
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
* Drove to Bryce Canyon Visitor Center to wait for 8am door opening to get tickets for moonlight hike (davened while waiting in line).
* Shopped in local supermarket
* Went fishing in Painguitch Lake
* Drove around town
* Hung out in the Lodge
* Fished again
* Drove to Bryce Canyon (view points and/or lookouts)
* Moonlight hike in Bryce Canyon with stargazing
2am: Time to sleep
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Thursday, July 11, 2013
Monday, July 08, 2013
I'd get my own apartment.
I wouldn't have to worry about ticket prices and flight schedules for hours and hours (and days and days, weeks and weeks. Ye, months and months.)
I'd sign up for boxing or kickboxing even when I'm only in the town for one week of the month's membership.
I'd pay back all my family's debts.
That's the current list.