But it doesn't work like that.
Ever faced a bear in a jungle? Well neither have I, but I imagine that paying it no attention will not bring about satisfactory results (er for you, at least).
But how could I focus on it?
But really, how could I not focus on it?
The 'Tes' of nearly every month does something to my heart.
It jolts me back to the first Tes. Tes Sivan.
That Tes Sivan.
I hate it.
I hate that Tes Sivan was coming and that Reizi wasn't here.
I don't want to learn things in her memory. I want to learn with her.
I don't want to organize shiurim in her zechus. I want the zechus to organize shiurim with her.
I don't want to tell kids to do mitzvos for her. I want her to do mitzvos with kids.
I don't want to reminisce, to mourn, to miss, to cry. I just want her alive.
How dare you, Tes Sivan??
How dare you take her away!?
What audacity you possess! What brazenness and nerve you harbor!
To pounce upon my friend like that!
To snatch away a little girl!
To lead Reizi away from us all.
You did it, Tes Sivan. Just like that.
Every day has its mission, I suppose.
Was your directive to find a pure, unchanged, piece of G-d down here in this tainted world and bring it up to Him?
I can't blame you, Tes Sivan.
You found the most perfect piece.
But really, couldn't you have waited? Could you not have allowed us another few years? Another fifty, sixty, seventy, eighty years? She was only ten. Only ten years old, she was. Do you know what that is? Ha, but you're just a day. Only one day. One single day.
But your power.
One day took ten years away.
But listen up, Tes Sivan.
Listen good and well.
I'm not giving in.
None of us are.
I'm not intimidated by you, Tes Sivan.
You don't scare me.
I don't have to turn my head anymore.
I can stare you straight in the eye.
I'm not afraid.
My power exceeds yours.
I'm gonna bring Reizi back in a way that you will never be able to touch her again.
She's gonna live forever and ever.
Forever and ever and ever and ever.
I'm gonna bring Moshiach, Tes Sivan.
See, I'm gonna make Reizi proud.
I'm gonna make her so proud and so encouraged and so empowered that she's gonna come down here and give me a huge hug.
Weapons of the Spirit.
Soon as I read that on the video cover in the library today, I thought of our own weapons of spirit.
We're so gonna win.
We will hold her.
I will feel her hands in mine.
And no Reizi, I'll never say goodbye.