Monday, December 04, 2006

look at these faces

i look at each face and then read the name
i look at each face and then read the age
i look at each face and then read the hometown
i look at each face and read and read and read

i look at each face and think of the parents
i look at each face and think of the siblings
i look at each face and think of the friends
i look at each face and think and think and think

i look at each face and stare at the eyes
i look at each face and stare at the smile
i look at each face and stare at the expression
i look at each face and stare and stare and stare

i look at each face and picture the house
i look at each face and picture the school
i look at each face and picture the synagogue
i look at each face and picture and picture and picture

i look at each face and imagine the life
i look at each face and imagine the aspirations
i look at each face and imagine the fears
i look at each face and imagine the secrets
i look at each face and imagine the disappointments
i look at each face and imagine the humor
i look at each face and imagine the hopes
i look at each face and imagine the heroes
i look at each face and imagine the struggles
i look at each face and imagine the victories
i look at each face and imagine the knowledge
i look at each face and imagine and imagine and imagine

i look at each face and feel so scared
i look at each face and feel so sad
i look at each face and feel so angry
i look at each face and feel so grateful
i look at each face and feel and feel and feel

i look at each face and know they've moved on and up
i look at each face and know we'll be comforted
i look at each face and know they're with G-d
i look at each face and know we'll be with these holy tzaddikim so soon
i look at each face and know they've achieved the highest of highs

i look at each face and yet knowing all that, the hurt still stays; for i am looking at these faces and reading and thinking and staring and picturing and imagining and feeling.

12 comments:

anonymous coward said...

ill admit (albeit anonymously) that i cried when i read this post. powerful, Chava

wandering said...

Ah I couldnt decide if you were refering to holocaust victims or terrorist victims. May their blood be avenged.

Nemo said...

I'll just admit that I spent the whole article wondering if you used cut and paste or if you typed out each "i look at each face" one by one with as much individuality and recognition as you seem to see in the faces?????

the sabra said...

anonymous c-
Soon, o very soon, those tears will be tears of joy.
(Tell me, do you know me?)

wandering-
Amen.

nemo-
i wrote out each one.
i didn't plan what i was gonna write.
i just wrote as my thoughts flew.

deeK said...

Chav, i got chills reading this and it almost brought me to tears. my sister was very close friends with michael levine and i met him a few times last year. It doesnt really hit you until you know someone that it happened to and you realize that (like you wrote) each face had a home, family, life, friends, etc that he left behind.

coward said...

AMEN!!! Ya you know me, just didnt have the guts to comment with my blogger ID this time

the sabra said...

dee-
ur jokin omg, which sister? sara? omg as i was lookin at them again and again (and again and again and again), some stuck out. some seemed more 'real' than others. he was one of them. oy im shakin

c-
cheater

coward turned cheater said...

i kno

elchonon said...

I knew micheal levine well hy'd. and I mourn for the soldiers but sadly at the rate we are going now they c'v wont be the last...

Quoting olmert "better kidnapped soldiers then dead ones" the guy is out of touch with reality and the situation gets worse by the day.

And so I dont mourn.. I use their life and ultimate death's as a motivation to keep fighting.

Rachel said...

Chava!

the sabra said...

Eh?

the sabra said...

Why did you shout, Rachel?