Sunday, April 16, 2006

Why I Miss Israel

I want my brain back!
I want to come home exhausted after doing 'nothing' all day.
I want to feel exhilirated after a thrilling conversation with a stranger.
I want to stay awake all night, guilty that I have a home and my friends from the Gush don't.
I want to talk to Hashem, out loud.
I want to talk to myself in public, without a care.
I want to emotionally wreck myself up, trying to find myself.
I want to see that all Jews are brothers.
I want to, as nemo says, go to the beach and the kotel the same day.
I want to go to the beach and feel the holiness of the kotel.
I want to go to the kotel and see the people from the beach.
I want to be awed as I walk on the paths of our avot.
I want to make mistakes in hebrew so I can learn a new language.
I want to stare at every soldier I see.
I want to think, think, think.
I want my brain back!

17 comments:

Nemo said...

What an honor!! I inspired three lines here!

chanie said...

I want to go with you! I want to make aliyah! I want to go to Israel....and I want to go right now!

the sabra said...

chanie, so bring moshiach. and nemo, pipe. and write more about israel.

Nemo said...

But I usually don't write such nice things about it...

elchonon said...

aww man!! sounds like my feelings!

ughh 1 more month of shmutz la'aretz.

I miss most.. Tremping to nowhere!! just standing by the tremps and meeting people!!

the sabra said...

ya ya of course. (thats what we did for purim...well, first day at least)

but here i was talking about the brain cells being all fizzed out. trempin to nowhere doesnt activate my brain cells. stay tuned for the next megillah in the 'why i miss israel' series.

o and thanks for visitin my blog..shmutz l'aretz ha...

elchonon said...

purim 1st night is ALLWAYS at baruch goldstein hy'd kever!
By day i either go back to chevron or sometimes beitar.

why arent you in israel now and when did you leave?

the sabra said...

no questions and no questions. and to answer, im always in israel. mach duh eretz yisroel. I AM ISRAEL.

Nemo said...

Let's try this again....

I miss the seemingly endless number of flavors of Crystal soda {mint???}...

I miss the Jerusalem Post...

I miss waking up on some random lawn, scorching in the heat of the sun... all before seven in the morning...

I miss the people that didn't care to find me there...

I miss Gush Katif...

I miss Krosonot and Burekasim...

I miss the Arab Chabadnik...

I miss the "haziness" of Eilat...

I miss the "craziness" of Tzfat...

I miss never getting to taste Jachnun...

I'm gonna miss Lag B'omer and Shavuot...

I miss missed opportunities...

the sabra said...

what are krosonot and i still cant get over the mint drinks uch and how long ago and for how long were u in israel?

wandering said...
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wandering said...

you told me to check this out before yom tov and I must confess I didn't... but I get it... I think ; ).
And what I miss about israel.... sitting in the rova with nothing to do and ending up doing something crazy like touring the arab quarter....
and yes I must agree- tremping to nowhere was the biggest thrill...
and five shek felafel...
mostly though, when I think back to Israel and what I loved about it, I just remember this glorious, uplifting feeling in my heart that stayed with me everywhere I went. It was a joy and amazement that was in the air that I breathed and in the people I met.

the sabra said...

yo, u all missin the point. notice how i started and ended off w/ 'i want my brain back'. barur that there are hamon other reasons...

Nemo said...

Krosonot {croisants} are the mini rugalach, but specifically the ones with no flavor.

Hayiti Ba'aretz lifnei shanan bishvil shanah achat {tisha chodashim bidiyuk}.

Frum but Thinking said...

I suppose i've not experianced most of what your wrote. My 12 days in Israel gave me just a taste, and that's even worse. Having just a drop, just enough to let you know you're missing out on something very great.

Most people love Israel cause of it's Jewishness and the multitudes of Jewish people everywhere. Growing up in NY, where there are Jews everywhere, and then going to Israel where there are Jews everywhere, it really makes no difference.

The thing that matters most to me, is Israel's history. The caves we went crawling in which still had pigeon holes carved into the walls from the ancient times where they used messenger pigeons. The crumbling caves way up on the mountain. The foundations of buildings at Masada. That is what makes Israel unique to me. Interesting conversation, you can find anywhere, but a history, a pride ibn actually seeing that your religion did indeed go back thousands of years, that is what I miss about Israel.

Just my opinion. :)

wandering said...

and how exactly does 'i want my brain back' imply that? barur, huh?

the sabra said...

imply what, wandering? all the reasons i listed here are a result of me just feelin blah. everything used to be an experience, everything challenged my brain, teased it, made me think and rethink and rerethink. but since i've left for chul, i feel like everything is drab. ordinary. what you see is what you get. hope i answered ur question.

now for you ms frum-i disagree. not with everything, but just about. im not talking about interesting conversations here. imt talking about conversing and getting to know the mind and soul of the yidden who are holding onto our inheritance. of those who fought in bloody battles. of those who have seen their best friends blown to bits.

I too grew up in a frum community and went to frum schools all my life. All my friends are Jewish and I think 99% of em are religious. That is nothing compared to seeing Machane Yehuda 10 minutes before shabbos begins and then the 10 minutes after. That is nothing compared to participating in chanuka lightings in random supermarkets and falafel shops. or seeing the streets filled with purim costumes. i'm sorry but none of that comes close to the 'jewishness' in israel.

The people there are different. chiloni, mitnachel, chareidi, mizrachi, olah...makes no difference. they have a certain strength that is hard to find outside of eretz yisroel.

of course history is part of it. but i dont need to see pigeon holes to know that. i see jews all over the world and i know that. i see chabad (and others) helping multitudes of jews do one more mitzvah and i know that judaism is alive. i know we have a history and even more importantly i know we have a future.

im all riled up n emotional and i have tons more to say but im worried that i might be mixing facts and opinions...

(and yes i do think the difference is that you were there for only 12 days...)