Friday, October 02, 2015

4 Orphans

four orphans

two words
two quiet words
so loud
so sharp
so dull
so plain
so powerful
so empty
so weak
so strong
so eternal

עד מתי??????

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

He asked me to smile.

If not for His directive to rejoice on these days, I'd have let Sadness and/or Bitterness and/or Depression and/or Self Pity run my show two or more times thus far during this chag.

Tonight I (also literally hehe) kicked three letter donkey.


Boruch hashem.

And it's not only His commandment to rejoice that forces me out of my potential and/or looming misery but it's ANY commandment of His.

He wants me and needs me and that's cause for joy, peace and celebration.

Sunday, August 30, 2015

Sunday, August 23, 2015

I love Kohanim

What should I tell you? I have a thing for Kohanim. Strong solid beings of holiness. Love it.

Thursday, August 20, 2015

Today's Mitzvot

Negative Commandment 246
Stealing Land
"You shall not move back your neighbor's boundary marker"—Deuteronomy 19:14.
It is forbidden to tamper with a boundary marker separating two parcels of land, so as to claim part of a neighbor's property. One who does so has violated this Torah injunction—in addition to being guilty of theft.
This commandment only applies in the land of Israel. Outside of Israel, one who tampers with a land marker is only guilty of transgressing the generic prohibition against theft.

Negative Commandment 243
"Do not steal"—Exodus 20:13.
It is forbidden to abduct one's fellow.


The first filled me with awe - see how precious our Holy Land, literal land, is.
The second filled me with giggles -short sweet n to the point - and sadness, for those whom have indeed been abducted.

Monday, August 17, 2015

Imagine That..

"The power of imaginative thought is one of the most important faculties of the soul. It can help elevate a person to great levels in his service and understanding of G-d.
The Rebbes of Chabad, very much appreciated those that were blessed with this ability."

- Likutei Dibburim, Vol. 1 Pg. 157

Saturday, August 01, 2015

A Banangrams Observation

Today I heard a most pleasing observation.

" 'Yearning' is sucha Chava word. You're always yearning for better things, for Moshiach..."

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Why Moshe Asked To Die (video lecture)

Video Lecture

I'm speechless.

(wow nice pun there, chav)

G-d, You just blow me away.

So we ARE in a relationship...

- still processing, still processing -

Monday, July 27, 2015

"For a writernothing is ever quite as bad as it is for other people, because, however dreadful, it may be of use."

Alan Bennett said it.

Maybe also for a chossid. Well, every Jew really but they don't all know the secret. 

Reminds me of Yossi Jacobson's maggidim can't properly repent/return because always thinking how they'll use the line next.

My apologies to daughters of G-d who search in vain for titles. Sometimes I just don't feel like capitalizing myself. 

So much for me to process wow.

Monday, July 20, 2015

Let's talk about loneliness

Loneliness is an issue that can be put in a mystical context. Even though it’s mystical, it has deep psychological implications.
For me, personally, the issue is not so much whether we can distract ourselves and find ways to avoid the issue of being alone, which many of us do, but the issue is really an existential one. Existential loneliness essentially means that we are alone in this world. That we’re self-contained human beings.
No matter how much you feel for another person, there’s still a boundary: I’m me and you’re you. And that, when you think about it, has a certain element of pain because it’s something that you can’t get around.
You can party all the time and you can be a happy person, but you can still feel alone. When the Temple was destroyed and the Jews were sittingshiva, their saying Aicha yoshva bodad, “How lonely it is to sit alone,” was the expression of this existential loneliness. With the Temple being destroyed, being torn away from us, we were left with a situation where you suddenly see yourself in a glaring way and you see that I’m not connected.
And that’s what I’m leading to, that loneliness is not just between you and other people. Loneliness can be between you and yourself. You can be very happy being with others and still feel lonely because you’re disconnected from yourself.

Read the full radio show transcript by Simon Jacobson here.

Wednesday, July 01, 2015

I am not sure I can say this without bursting from emotion, but I'll try.

I am in Eretz Yisroel.
I am surrounded by yidden.
I live in our Holy Land, the one G-d promised to Avraham and Yitzchak and Yaakov.
I live in this holiest land that Moshe Rabbeinu, our teacher, leader and faithful shepherd burned with desire and yearning to step foot in.
And I live here. I have stepped foot on its soil, drank its waters, breathed its air.
I live in Eretz Yisroel.

My heart hurts from emotion. I am about to cry. My stomach twists.

Me? Chava? In the beautiful, ageless, timeless Eretz Yisroel?

May it be His will that I always be worthy of this reality.

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

And then I checked my email and PayPal told me "Consider yourself secure." but really, it was G-d telling me that.

G-d said to Moses, "And I will also fulfill the promise I made with them, to give them the land of Israel." (Ex. 6:4) To whom had G-d made a promise? To our ancestors, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. But if they had already passed away, how could they receive the land of Israel? This is one of the sources whence we learn about Techiyat Hameytim - the resurrection of the dead in the Messianic Era. Even though our Patriarchs are no longer alive, the land will still be given to them because in the days of Moshiach, our ancestors, and all Jews, will come back to life.
(Yalkut Shimoni 6:176)
And I'm thinking - yah allah, I live in this land!

Monday, June 29, 2015

I've always wanted a storybook friend.*

And tonight, tonight I got my storybook friend.

"Too good to be true," comes to mind but guess what buster? It's too good and it's true.

Korban todah here we come.

*I'm looking for the post where I wrote about it a zillion years ago.

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