Friday, November 27, 2015

I'm No Man :(

The specialty of the sukkah as an all-embracing medium of connection with G-d is best understood in light of the significance of the “home” to the human being.
Our sages point out how deeply rooted is man’s desire for a home. The desire for a home is much more than the need for shelter and security—the satisfaction of these needs alone, without a plot of land to call one’s own, does not satisfy the craving for a home. The Talmud goes so far as to say that “One who does not possess a homestead is not a man.” The need for a home is intrinsic to the soul of man and a defining aspect of the human state.
Thus, a person’s identification with his home is not confined to the hours he spends within its walls. Also when he is at work, visiting with friends or taking a stroll in the park, it is as the owner of this particular home that he works, visits or strolls. Since his very humanity is incomplete without it, it is part and parcel of everything he does.

 Don't remember where I saw this but I saved it and now I'm sharing it. Me. (I wanna say, "I'm no 'it'" but alas, these words doresh that I don't.) 

So High, So Low by Matisyahu

when the time is right
I'll leave this place tonight just leave everything behind it's time to face my life we’ll trail a path across that gapand slap back to a crack in time is anyone on the other side? seek and you might find so high, so low I don't know where but we got to got to go there
so high, so low don't know where but we got to got to go there why not give up buck up, drop down why not lie down and never wake up give in give up and don't get up give in to the ground who gives up she is frozen in time behind the enemy line in the nighttime she stares down the highway which way is the right way? walkin through this world on a tightrope a memory door swings both ways in and out
in the outside, buckle up it's gonna be a bumpy ride now it's gonna be a bumpy ride now so high, so low I don't know where but we got to got to go there so high, so low I don't know where but we got to got to go there I am searching for the shade of the tree heard about it from a tune in the breeze they say it exists on the side of the road but which road? nobody was told (so low) all I know is I must find a road that leads where nobody goes (so low) I can roll down all the windows where the wind blows down those fears and foes (so high) so let go of the steering wheel let go, let go (so low)
all I know is I must find a road that leads where nobody goes let go of the steering wheel let go, let go so high, so low I don't know where but we got to got to go there so high so low I don't know where but we got to got to go there


I like the Petramale group these days. Randall, Steve, Fletcher, and the girl whose name nobody can pronounce lol.

Sunday, November 22, 2015

Twenty One Freakin Years

Twenty one long long long long years of whining and shouting when in need of something, anything.


Friday, November 20, 2015

Evil is so clearly about to break eternally and is now fighting ferociously with its last breath.

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

The Torah forbids jealousy

Furthermore, it doesn't even make sense.
       But still, the 10 puts up a fight.

Monday, November 16, 2015



and I don't even want to stay either

Gd help me

Help me please

Please please please!!!!!!

Thursday, November 12, 2015

He chose her as a shlucha.

Thanks but no thanks.

Pick us for other things.

Revealed good things.

Not stupid missions of death-carrying wombs.

I cry.

Tuesday, November 03, 2015

I lied for peace!!

Woohoo!! Starting my legacy ;)

Joy and Peace.  שמחה ושלום.

Eh, wasn't such a great boxing class.
Partner was weak in holding her gloves up. Frustrated me even as I tried to keep in mind the patience the other guys have for me. I think I was gracious externally. I hope so. I'm glad I (kinda slyly?) just took to the bags at the end. Really like that new combo - jab cross, cross hook, hook cross body body hook cross. Yeaaah! Don't feel sore, stretched or worked out at all but if I recall that He runs the world to make things perfect for me and my mission, then I'm content.

Blessed be His name forever and ever.

Derech Agav, that first comma after "Eh" reminded me of the "," being the punctuation of the introvert tidbit/opinion I just came across.

Derech Chevron, you're in my heart. I wanna be on you super soon and safely on my way to חברון proper. Amen.

Sunday, November 01, 2015

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Friday, October 09, 2015

Master of the Universe,
You don't usually (er ever) consult me when You're plan - making so pardon me for entering uncalled upon.
But, like Esther, I'm here to save my people.
Save one man, one Jewish man, and You'll be saving the world.
You want a home in this world, don't You? You do. Well, he's one of the top builders. Keep him here so long as we're in exile. And keep him here happy and healthy. Seriously, we know You can.

With gratitude, 
Your meek, subdued, defiant, desperate servant.

Friday, October 02, 2015

4 Orphans

four orphans

two words
two quiet words
so loud
so sharp
so dull
so plain
so powerful
so empty
so weak
so strong
so eternal

עד מתי??????

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

He asked me to smile.

If not for His directive to rejoice on these days, I'd have let Sadness and/or Bitterness and/or Depression and/or Self Pity run my show two or more times thus far during this chag.

Tonight I (also literally hehe) kicked three letter donkey.


Boruch hashem.

And it's not only His commandment to rejoice that forces me out of my potential and/or looming misery but it's ANY commandment of His.

He wants me and needs me and that's cause for joy, peace and celebration.

Sunday, August 30, 2015