Saturday, August 01, 2015

A Banangrams Observation

Today I heard a most pleasing observation.

" 'Yearning' is sucha Chava word. You're always yearning for better things, for Moshiach..."

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Why Moshe Asked To Die (video lecture)

Video Lecture

I'm speechless.

(wow nice pun there, chav)

G-d, You just blow me away.

So we ARE in a relationship...

- still processing, still processing -

Monday, July 27, 2015

"For a writernothing is ever quite as bad as it is for other people, because, however dreadful, it may be of use."

Alan Bennett said it.

Maybe also for a chossid. Well, every Jew really but they don't all know the secret. 


Reminds me of Yossi Jacobson's maggidim can't properly repent/return because always thinking how they'll use the line next.


My apologies to daughters of G-d who search in vain for titles. Sometimes I just don't feel like capitalizing myself. 


So much for me to process wow.

Monday, July 20, 2015

Let's talk about loneliness

Loneliness is an issue that can be put in a mystical context. Even though it’s mystical, it has deep psychological implications.
For me, personally, the issue is not so much whether we can distract ourselves and find ways to avoid the issue of being alone, which many of us do, but the issue is really an existential one. Existential loneliness essentially means that we are alone in this world. That we’re self-contained human beings.
No matter how much you feel for another person, there’s still a boundary: I’m me and you’re you. And that, when you think about it, has a certain element of pain because it’s something that you can’t get around.
You can party all the time and you can be a happy person, but you can still feel alone. When the Temple was destroyed and the Jews were sittingshiva, their saying Aicha yoshva bodad, “How lonely it is to sit alone,” was the expression of this existential loneliness. With the Temple being destroyed, being torn away from us, we were left with a situation where you suddenly see yourself in a glaring way and you see that I’m not connected.
And that’s what I’m leading to, that loneliness is not just between you and other people. Loneliness can be between you and yourself. You can be very happy being with others and still feel lonely because you’re disconnected from yourself.

Read the full radio show transcript by Simon Jacobson here.

Wednesday, July 01, 2015

I am not sure I can say this without bursting from emotion, but I'll try.

I am in Eretz Yisroel.
I am surrounded by yidden.
I live in our Holy Land, the one G-d promised to Avraham and Yitzchak and Yaakov.
I live in this holiest land that Moshe Rabbeinu, our teacher, leader and faithful shepherd burned with desire and yearning to step foot in.
And I live here. I have stepped foot on its soil, drank its waters, breathed its air.
I live in Eretz Yisroel.

My heart hurts from emotion. I am about to cry. My stomach twists.

Me? Chava? In the beautiful, ageless, timeless Eretz Yisroel?

May it be His will that I always be worthy of this reality.

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

And then I checked my email and PayPal told me "Consider yourself secure." but really, it was G-d telling me that.

Thanks.
G-d said to Moses, "And I will also fulfill the promise I made with them, to give them the land of Israel." (Ex. 6:4) To whom had G-d made a promise? To our ancestors, Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. But if they had already passed away, how could they receive the land of Israel? This is one of the sources whence we learn about Techiyat Hameytim - the resurrection of the dead in the Messianic Era. Even though our Patriarchs are no longer alive, the land will still be given to them because in the days of Moshiach, our ancestors, and all Jews, will come back to life.
(Yalkut Shimoni 6:176)
And I'm thinking - yah allah, I live in this land!

Monday, June 29, 2015

I've always wanted a storybook friend.*

And tonight, tonight I got my storybook friend.

"Too good to be true," comes to mind but guess what buster? It's too good and it's true.

Korban todah here we come.


*I'm looking for the post where I wrote about it a zillion years ago.

Lol Of The Day (or, "Word Of The Day")

הסטטיסטיקה

Thursday, June 25, 2015

I feel so so grateful that G-d has given me....

1) air conditioning in my bedroom/office

2) a desk built into my room

3) a gift in understanding children

4) the opportunity to be a channel to deliver healing through therapeutic massage 

5) friends - from in and out of my country - who reach out to me to see how I'm doing

6) the capability, ability and desire to learn Torah 

7) the means to buy clothing

8) the means to buy food

9) freedom of fear for my life

10) a large extended family

11) my sense of what's humorous

12) all my senses

13) a healthy body, mind and spirit

14) so many talents

15) the Rebbe

16) my mashpia

17) the wildest, most incredible, unbelievable zechus to live in our very own precious Eretz Yisroel

18) a heart that cries for my friends whose family members that have passed onto the next stage of Life

19) creativity

20) the people who have played major or minor roles in bettering my life



That's the short basic list for the time being. Now I could hopefully pray a bit more appropriately than usual.

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

The Eye Of The Beholder - “The Land of Israel is very good.” (14:7)
“I don’t know how you live in this country... You’re living in the Third World. It’s dirty and dangerous. It’s beyond my comprehension why someone with a decent standard of living would uproot himself and live in a Levantine slum.” Why is it that to some people the Land of Israel seems so beautiful while others struggle to see its beauty and leave disappointed?
Once there was a beautiful princess who had many suitors for her hand in marriage. Obviously she could only marry one of them and so she devised a plan to select the more promising candidates. When a young man would come to woo her, her servants would usher him into an ante-chamber. On the table in front of him were some fruit and some books of Torah scholarship. The servants told him that the princess would be with him shortly. They bade him make himself comfortable and to help himself to some fruit. What the suitor did not know was that there was a spy-hole in the wall of the room. Through this, the princess would observe the aspiring groom.
If he took a piece of fruit and made a beracha with apparent concentration, or if he took up a book and began to learn intently, then she would emerge in her finest apparel and appeared as a rare beauty.If, however, the suitor took some fruit and failed to make a beracha or idled his time away and didn’t use the opportunity to learn Torah, then she would put on torn rags, blacken her face and teeth and emerge looking like a hag.
Eretz Yisrael is that princess.
If a person comes to the Land looking for spirituality even the physical beauty of Eretz Yisrael will enchant him. On the other hand, if a person is not worthy, everything will seem dirty and dingy.However, Eretz Yisrael will never embarrass a person. Rather than suffering the embarrassment of being rejected by the Land, Eretz Yisrael allows the person to think that he has rejected her.
Sources: The Ramban writing to his talmidim from Eretz Yisrael (Ohr Somayach)
from the "Keep Olim in Israel Movement"  FB group

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

☀️ Tel Aviv $591 �� Seoul from $699 �� Dublin from $544

I am SO excited that it'll cost me only $591 to get to Tel Aviv now!

Those 16 shekel bus rides are just too much...

Sunday, June 14, 2015

One Chareidi, Two Chareidi...

"So, you are eh looking for a working or learning?"
"Um -- "
"Of course firstly cute."
"Huh?"
"First he has to be a cute."
"Cute?"
"Yes, you are cute so he has to be a cute."

Loll!

That was awesome. And a relief not to be a crybaby. (I think.)


Also, חמצן.

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Food Anagrams

My eating plan these days.
Same ingredients, different form.
Not by choice, mind you.
Well, everything is a choice...

How can you deny the Holocaust and then accuse us of acting just as the Nazis, may their names be obliterated forever?

Can't have your hamantash and eat it too, ya know.

Then again, if their claim is that the story we tell of the Holocaust is a gross exaggeration of the reality, then their accusations that we're acting like the perpetrators is not as severe as we/they think it is. Absolutely horrifyingly blatantly untrue and terrible etc to even consider comparing but interesting observation of their double play.

Not all of life's problems can be solved with a Nestle
שלגון בשומן צמחי בטעם וניל במילוי נוגט, בציפוי שוקולד לבן וחטיפי אורז תפוח, but a good whole lot of em can.

Who remembers my Magnum day(s)?