Friday, May 27, 2016

The Good Life

Bose headphones and Alaska and loud music in my ears,
Stuffed Koby and a wooden desk and movies of good tears.
Words to write up any day, moment or mind-shift,
Smiles, jokes and inner rock for every mood to lift.

I'm blessed in my hunger, on my blankets and my all.
And I've just been reminded every leap comes from a fall.

Calm Fire

a calm fire is in my soul
raging without sound or rage
jumping leaping totally still
bursting out with peaceful will

dance, black hats, dance
reach out and take the joy
sing your songs of years and yearn 
teaching all what they don't learn

speed and heat, frenetic power
there here there here where
raging without sound or rage
a calm fire is in my soul

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

The Date of Moshiach's Arrival

If it was golus, we'd argue over time zone truths, secretly at best, openly and ferociously at worst.
But it won't be golus, so we'll all happily, peacefully and gracefully agree without anyone feeling rejected or compromised.

O how sweet Redemption will be. How very sweet indeed.

Sunday, May 22, 2016

Some (of the zillion) Stuff I'm Grateful For

My sneakers and my laptop. My room. My desk. My window to the street. My job. My students. My coworkers and my free use of the copy machine. My free use of car, wifi, washing machine and dryer (all big sizes). Nice weather to hang up clothes outside. Free pool nearby. My boxing gym so close and cozy. Souvenirs from a million places. Having been in the coolest places. Backpacking trips, with and without friends. 3 day camel trip in the Rajasthan desert of India. Dressing up like locals in Marrakesh, Morocco. Villages and like-villages and freezing mountaintops in Azerbaijan. Full day ice climbing in Matanuska Glacier in Alaska. Amtrak train across the USA. My ability to write. My smile. My glasses. My hair. My friends and my cousins. My fingers and my toes. My seforim. My chavrusas. Having lived all over the world. Eretz Yisroel. Eretz Yisroel. Eretz Yisroel. Having a Rebbe. Having the Lubavitcher Rebbe as my Rebbe. Having a dollar from the Rebbe. Getting guidance from the Rebbe. Blessed and cherished and loved by Hashem.

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Fights I Like

War and fights and struggle, I like. External, but that's rare to come without internal too. Comedy and history are nice but it's the drama of battle that lures me. I don't like violence or death or pain. I shudder and turn away and block it out. But soldiers and boxing champions are something else.

You'd think I'd welcome a break from the battlegrounds but nope. Is it cuz it's the only thing that resonates as truth? Is it cuz I get motivated and inspired? Is it cuz I feel comforted to recognize it's not just me? Is it 4:36am and I have to go to sleep?

Wednesday, April 06, 2016

Real Fights

That moment when your gangster boxing teacher asks you what was the most dramatic thing that happened in your elementary school where you work, and you answer, "when the students break their inner  nature", and you get a priceless look of confusion as to which bone that is and what weapons were used to achieve that.

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Fighting the Fight

"I once told someone I'll fight until my body falls apart," he said tonight.

"It's happening," we said at the same time.

"Stop before you kill yourself," I said.

"I need the money," he said.

"You wanna be rich and dead," I half-asked, half-said.

"Yup," he said.

I sighed.

"And I'll leave all my money for ... the people I don't even have," he said.

"Oysh. Don't make me so sad for you," I said, and punched out the next combo.

What a nation, are we.

We would LOVE to you have all Ladies (you and your friend and friend's friend!) for Shushan Purim seudah and Pesach meals in Shmuel Hanavi Maalot dafna area. In general we are often available and love to host for shabbosim as well and we do have 3 sleeping spots when they are claimed early.  For shushan purim seudah  everyone brings a dvar torah or inspirational story. Spread the word and be in touch!!!!!!!:) 

See, now getting an email like that makes my heart feel like it's gonna burst.  They left their email address and phone number, I'll give em to you if you pass my security clearance. 

Monday, March 21, 2016

My Mission

Everyone's got a mission in life.

For some, it is to marry, raise children, and establish communities.
For others, it is to babysit those kids so the parents can carry on with what they need to do.

We all have a mission :)

Sunday, March 20, 2016


".תספר לי קצת על שדרות. תגיד לי משהו מענין על העיר שלך"
.ככה אמרתי לנוער בן 12 שפגשתי בשדרות היום
.יש לנו קסמים," הוא ענה לי מיד"
.זה הדבר היחיד שיש לך להגיד לי!?" אני שאלתי"

-פתאום חבר שלו מצתרף בשיחה
"?מה, אין לכם קסמים אצלכם באמריקה"
.'סימנתי עם הראש, 'לא
"....הילד הראשון פנה אליו, "כנראה יש להם רק גרד
Four Gates
Nissan 27, 5775 · April 16, 2015

“Judges and officers shall you appoint in all your cities…” (Deuteronomy 16:18)
Think of yourself as a city. You have four magical gates: The Gate of Seeing, the Gate of Listening, the Gate of Imagining and the Gate of Speaking.
Magical gates, because an Infinite G‑d enters your finite city through these gates. An infinite G‑d who cannot be squeezed within any place or boxed within any definition, but chooses to dress neatly in a wisdom called Torah—and these are your gates by which wisdom may enter.
That is why all the world competes to storm those gates. They want you to see the ugliness they see, hear the cacophony they hear, imagine the nonsense they imagine and speak without end. And then, you will desire all they desire and no room will be left in your city for that Infinite G‑d.
You only need master those gates and the city is yours.
Maamar Shoftim 5729.

Thursday, March 17, 2016


Is that a concern? To become overstrong? To sharpen and build and refine and tone and firm and overall strengthen yourself too much? Can you hold out your hand and say, "Thanks, G-d, and now that's enough." ?


I guess not.

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Don't Get Sucked Into The World

It is not business, not money, nor career, nor human relationships that tear our souls from us, and us from our G‑d. There is as much beauty in any of those as there is in any tree from the Garden of Eden, as much divinity as in any holy temple. G‑d, after all, is found wherever you care to look for Him.

It is the way we lock ourselves inside each of these, begging them to take us as their slave; the way we sacrifice upon their altars our dignity as human beings.

Whatever matter of this world you enter, stay higher, stay beyond. Remain free.

Friday, March 04, 2016

Hashem is so G-d'ish, it's insane.
He like just acts like a G-d.
Like G-d.

Just as I get to the step I can't do, Golan calls me from Israel to help me with it!!!!!

From My Qatar Files

When all else fails, at least I was in Qatar.


Thursday, March 03, 2016

Sunday, February 28, 2016

G-d Is Good

And the nature of Good is to do good.
And everything comes as a result of G-d.
Ergo, everything is good.

Lechaim. To life.

My Life Song

If a song of my life is ever created after my death, I want it to be a happy, optimistic, positive one. Even the tune should be bouncy, jolly, catchy, not somber no way.

Since the world doesn't read my blog *gasp* I better up my life a notch in that direction so they get it on their own.

Peace, love, joy.

That is life.

Ah, Mendy called

And all was good again.
Blessed be He.

Friday, February 26, 2016

But aleph (bet) gives hope.

Good HAS to win.

Truth truth truth.

Truth be good be light be me

Tears and hurt. Anger died. Dead inside. Let it end and begin the start. Dark and fog.

Secrets. Hidden. Try and try. Climb. Escape. Dig now. Always dig. No use to run. Holes. Black holes. Dark light. Why'd he kick me? So glad I don't care deep.

Trust mistrust love and betrayal. Ages of doubt. Caves and caverns of patterns of lost and found.

G-d tower
G-d island
G-d love