Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Jam to Soothe

I think the time has come to suit up (put on shoes) and march over to a bakery and get myself a fresh sufganiya.
Enough of the maturity and restraint and responsibility and growth and self-discipline and lessons and journeys and pain and introspection and all that heavy stuff.
Now I just need a warm jelly doughnut.

Sunday, December 14, 2014

I Miss My Bedroom

The wooden floor, the dim lighting at night. The coziness of the small corner. The shelf right there with my books and precious sentimental items: family-framed photo with my kidney recipient upon leaving the hospital, my Gush Katif framed photo from Nitzanim, assorted army paraphernalia, a holy piece of cloth, my travel trinkets from around the world. My rug. My blanket. My comfortable stuff. My books. My shelves and shelves of books in my old familiar bookshelves. My desk with my Jerusalem image. My seforim, my kidney files, my ceramic heart plant pot.

I miss my bedroom. 

Tuesday, December 09, 2014

Beautiful Bugs

I just saw a most beautiful bug.

The world is full of bugs but we don't usually gasp from their beauty.

I suppose if we'd pause, crouch and ponder, we'd see a lot more beauty in the bugs of our life.

Sunday, December 07, 2014

Making Aliyah

Hahaha making aliyah is much harder than I thought.

But that's okay.

Friday, December 05, 2014

Really, my מודה אני should leave me trembling with awe and burning with focus for at least one hour, hopefully more.

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Children of War (song)

How tragically apropos that I chose to listen to this song, Children Of War.

Which way is the world going?

The world is absolutely upside down.
In a bad way. In a horrible way. In a frightening way.
But the insanity of it all still speaks to me of Redemption.
When the Moshiach comes, there will be small changes that will be big changes that will turn the world upside down again in the straightest best way ever and so maybe these upside down events and decisions and reports and lifestyles are just the turnings of the dial.

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Heroes of Terror

I often think I'd be the hero too, but now I recognize the heroism in it and I'm not so sure I wouldn't duck behind someone else during fire.

שיבנה בית המקדש במהרה בימינו!!

Saturday, November 08, 2014

Ending World Hunger

I wish the Rebbe was here so I could see the open joy and delight on his face as he would surely discuss the latest blatant sign of Moshiach, as predicted by Maimonides -- no more hunger.

Moshiach will be a small change that will make a huge difference.

People sometimes dismiss the whole concept because it seems too radical to envision flying on eagles' wings and all the world knowing G-d. But really, with all the technology that's escalating so rapidly, we CAN imagine it. 'Google Now' unites all the parts of my life and that reminds me of how achdus Hashem will be rampant throughout the world. One message you post on a social network and millions upon millions of people can receive it instantly. These are real things, part of our life, but we see em through Golus glasses. We outta see em through Redemption Lenses.

May the Beis Hamikdosh be built speedily in our days, amen!!

Sunday, November 02, 2014

A car drives by my window at eight minutes past midnight, the music blasting, reminding me to go to sleep. I feel a stab of guilt at my needless being awake at this hour.

The music is Hebrew. I'm in a Jewish land. I'm in the Holy Land, precious to G-d and precious to His people. A wave of joy and gratitude washes over me and I melt in its presence.

Sunday, October 26, 2014

לך לך מארצך.....Living with the times

Today's Hayom Yom:

From a sicha of my father, after the conclusion of Shabbat Lech L'cha 5651 (1890): In the early years of his leadership the Alter Rebbe declared publicly, "One must live with the time." From his brother, R. Yehuda Leib, the elder chassidim discovered that the Rebbe meant one must live with the sedra of the week and the particular parsha of the day. One should not only learn the weekly parsha every day, but live with it.

OK FINE. I'LL LEAVE THE LAND OF MY BIRTHPLACE AND OF MY FATHER AND GO TO THE LAND OF ISRAEL.